you don't have time for that.

A wasp stung me on Friday in the space between my thumb and my fingers. It's quite painful.

In other news: I turned 18 on Saturday. Hurrah. Holly gave me LOADS of chocolate, Fais scared the living daylights out of me with a picture of a werewolf, and Fred not only swapped our disgusting kitchen clock for a new and shiny work of art (another kitchen clock), but also got me the - dundun- McFly album. Bless.

Went to Chris's house that evening after having visited some friends in London - met these two random guys call Jules and Ben in another house we went to, who were quite strange. Can't remember what the rest of them were called, but I had a really nice time.

Yay.

:D

I'm gone for at least a week, maybe two. Depends on how long it takes to set up internet. xD I'll see you soon! CLV, don't die on me. :P

I just called my school's exam results hotline.

And the verdict is...


AAAA

OMFG YAY.

Don't you just hate it when people laugh at EVERYTHING you say?

"Hi."
"..o..m...g..ROFLMFAO."

Seriously. It's not funny.

Alta: 'the smile she whore a clear indication exactly of what was going on in her head' [quoting Karm]
Alta: -DIES-
Karm: ...
Alta: XD
Karm: OH GOD.
Karm: I MEANT WORE
Karm: shit. xD
Alta: XD
Alta: WHOREWHOREWHORE


*DEAD* How embarassing.

I'm having one of those sad moments. It's probably the music. xD Or the fact that I'm leaving in five days, and I'm a tad bit nervous about it, but hey.

It's just...hm. I don't know how to explain this without sounding incredibly petty. I wish someone would make me something. ..alright, that didn't work. But, you know, ..small gestures. Things that show you don't just occupy someone else's mind when you force them into conversation with you. Even if it was just a stick-figure. I'd love a stick figure. I don't think anyone's ever made me anything. Steph sent me a letter about a year ago. We sort of drifted apart, though, after the whole Zenzia fiasco. I told her I'd put it aside, but it wasn't exactly easy. Basically, she wasn't who she said she was, for two years - so, forgive me if that stung a little.

But, yeah. I d'no, I'm being completely self-centered. But I don't think anyone's ever drawn me a picture, made me a layout, written me a letter/card. I'd have a folder for stuff like that if it ever happened, and I don't. :/ So, yeah. I'm certain I've done a lot of neglecting in my day, so this is so out of order, but it's 00:47 and I'm feeling a little bit under the weather.

Neither IBM nor the landlords have replied. Great. I need some fucking answers or I WON'T BE ABLE TO START WORK. Damnfuckit. And I'm working the afternoon shift, which is THE most boring, destructive job EVER. I hate it. I hate cleaning.

Concert was amazing. <3 on Uggla for persevering even if his knee was totalled.

Fucking hate tenancy agreements. I'm too young to sign, AND I don't have a UK-based guarantor. =) May have to ask family friends. Sigh.

I'm not really in the mood to update, but I feel I should before the last couple of (incredibly eventless) weeks pass out of my mind and seek their place in the vast oblivion that is the realm of things people really don't have space for in their heads. There they will meet, and constantly be introduced to new, shreds of the intellectual half of my brain, which is slowly being eroded away. I need some mental exercise. I need to read The Spanish Civil War. And, you know, prepare myself somewhat for the omgnewlife waiting around the corner, but I'm feeling just a liiiiiittle bit lazy. =D

We now have a house. The other IBM people and I, that is, and I'll be staying downstairs because the room that remained on the upstairs was about 4 square meters, and housed the boiler. =) I don't think so. Boarding school was bad enough (the room, I mean), and that was a whole six square meters of living space. Ok, so people might occasionally see me changing from the friggin' STREET, but ..that's a minor detail. Besides, I like boarding my windows up. And I'll probably end up doing that, because I'll be paranoid of burglars and the like. o_o Damnit. I hope they have bars on the windows. I seriously doubt they do. n_n They ALWAYS had bars in Brunei/Ghana/Togo. And walls, and dogs, and two sets of guards and ALARMS. ..well, ok, so we have a CCTV camera. I'll just have to MAKE DO WITH THAT. =o We're next to the bus stop and right across from the pub. And close to work. =o Could it get any better? <33 Too bad I'm only allowed 15kg with me on the plane, or thereabouts. x_X My parents are going to have to bring down the rest of my stuff when they come down to celebrate my mum's 50th on the 26th. I'm leaving in..two weeks? 15 days, more like - on the 19th. How exciting. I won't have internet for the first week, but we'll survive. I'll put CLV into the hands of someone else and excuse myself on...the other nine boards. xD Damnit.

I'm at too many boards. CLV, Refuge, PRV, PE, Fanta (I'm being far too slow with my ap, both here and at PE), Souls, Senlar (soon to be admin + IC leader, goddamnit), ANL (soon, because I loveth teh Shiny), and..I swear there're more. o_o Depths, when it opens? SHOULD it open? I'll just be giving myself more work. *Dead* I'll have to find time to finish the profiles sometime. Maybe tonight. I could make it priority. AND I ALSO NEED TO DO RESEARCH UNLIMITED. SHIT. x_X Oh well. And read all the stuff for IBM and I need to e-mail Mr. B for a reading list and gah. I don't know what this point was about originally, but it's turning into a 'I HAVE TOO MUCH TO DO' thing. Which, yeah. I have work in about two hours.

Work. Work's..alright. I'm getting slightly bored, which worries me, because I've only worked for about two, three weeks. >_> What's going to happen when I'm stuck with a job for YEARS? I'm just going to have to stop that from happening and resign as often as I can. Sure, I'll be..poor, but hey. Then again, I probably won't be in a repetitive job.

University. UCAS, -AGAIN-. Oh god.

I had a really strange dream. I was in this huge compound of houses, and the seasons were always shifting depending on the mood of the dream. I had a Ghost of Christmas Past-type moment - I wasn't making someone's life hell, I was giving someone envelopes of money I found in the snow that they had dropped ages ago, and they were really haaaappyyyy. Because it meant they could stay. Or something. I don't know. XD Anyway, then it moved on to me being someone completely different and living with some band, who were in the basement. o_o And then they stopped talking to me. And it was autumn again, and I was walking down this huge, tree-lined road to something in the distance. Anyway, it was odd.

kitschtwin's comics are great. I quote her saying "drawing harry is hard...i don't think he's going to appear in any more comics." Love on Arty.

What else...Oh, I was talking to Sar earlier (well, just now), and she always seems to get into these emotional tiffs with her friends. It doesn't matter who it is, there's always some tension. And then I thought, maybe it's not her with the problem, maybe I'm just incredibly insensitive. o_o That I'M the person who doesn't like intimacy. I don't know. xD Not the whole 'omg i dun lyk ppl gettin close tu meh', because I have nothing to hide. But like, just..other people's problems. I think I brush them aside, change the subject, never really get to know people that well. Or I'm just a Happy Influence. I d'no. Just a thought. XD

I've just added about 10 more things to my To Do list. Kill me now. x_X

In other news, my foot doesn't cane as much as it usually does. Which is strange - it's not gone completely, and come hell or high water it won't let me put weight on it properly, but it's a start. HALF A YEAR OF THIS HELL, DAMNFUCKIT. >/ And I need to stop eating so much shit. And I need to shower. And I have nothing more to say now kthxbye.

I just thought I should say that I'm really tired now.

*YAWN*

But I have to wake up early and start on tomorrow's list. =P

I’ve finished reading it now. Here’s what I thought:

( ”SPOILERS” )

I'm so BORED. x_X I have a tonne of posts to do, but other than one of the threads at CLV I'm too not-in-the-mood to get anything done. Rawr. I have about 10 really-very-active threads going on, and all I want to do is read HP6. It hasn't arrived yet because the post is a penis, so I'm reading HP5 and realizing I've forgotten just about everything. ;_; Then I need to call national insurance again, and the bank, and tomorrow I have work so ..bleh. But the book should arrive around 13:00, which is when my shift ends.

AHHH. x_X

Stole this from Ko, who stole it from Clara. xD

Years roleplaying: Five, maybe. =O
Least favourite character? Oh god. xD Uhm. I have no idea. I never really liked Tango much. And I'm sort of bored of Vision (sorry, sweetheart).
Favourite characters? DON'T ASK ME THIS QUESTION. AHHH. Well. I love Vit, and Jonathan. Both of them..are evil. xD And Teal, of course.. VAUGHN. <33 Slayer (bless him)..Andy (because he's weird).
Male or female characters? Male.
Oldest character? Vit.
Newest character? Oh..uhm. Oh I don't know. Lucien? He's a cat.
Most popular character? Vit, or one of the newer lads. xD VAUGHN.
Character you've never played? Kaahtiez. XD Joel.

Which character of yours would be most likely to...
Jump off a bridge? ...>_> Teal, after a long drink and his mum being mean to him.
Get drunk and pass out? Leviathan.
Kill somebody in a very unorthodox way? Vit.
Be far too hyper for their own good? Andy.
Be raped? JAMIE. xD Or Hotayl.
Get lost and refuse to ask for directions? DC. Because he can't leave his taxi. xD
Get lung cancer? Teal.
Star in a horror movie? Jonathan. =P
Star in a whore movie? DANTE, Shmee..so many more but I can't remember them. Jonathan. xD Lakin. Sin.
Star in a video game? o_O
Make the world a better place? VISION. Or ..CD, Circe. She's deluded.
Have a torrid gay love affair? Jonathan and any one of his brothers, many many times. Uhm. Fidel and Kaiin, because it'd be funny. xD Naeem and Dante. Shmee and Hotayl. Rofl rofl.

Relate each word to a character of yours:
Love: Vision.
Hate: Vit.
Money: Sly, Teal.
Seduction: Karm!Draco. Zionak, Jonathan before he does bad things. ARTEM. Lukas. xD
Lies: ..surprisingly few.
Tragedy: Vision, Vaughn, Caspian, Fenrir, Katt, Verohari. Dimitri. Slayer. Sheiro, Lyit, Wiarin.
Manipulation: Vit
Violence: Vit, Odium, Jonathan,
Politics: Teal.
Fire: Eld.
Ice: December.

Would you ever...
Play a prostitute? I tend to play the pimps, or the prostitute-customers. n_n;
Play a musician? Naeem.
Play a pilot? Fuck. XD He's a jet pilot.
Play a homosexual? ... uh, noooo.
Play a pedophile? JONATHANJONATHANJONATHAN.
Play a politician? D'no..xD
Create a character for the sole purpose of smut? YES.
Play a character who commits incest? JONATHAAAAAAAN.

I've been stolen from. *Beams* I feel so honoured. Mismatching bits of my layouts have been used with a pre-made skin on a Hogwarts board. Remember Gloria, Shiny? xD Oh yes. This is great. I'm going to offer to make her a layout and stick a big fat 'MADE BY KARMENCITA' on the bottom. =P Just because I like having the moral highground. Pshaw.

I'm in need of a very, very big update.

=O Here goes nothing.

Exams - Done. Been there, done that, got the T-Shirt. I had fifteen of them, ten in the space of about six days, and the other five were either retakes (chemistry) or the ICT AS. On a whole, they went well. I crapped up on the source history a bit because I had a 15 minute panic attack. Mr. B told me I should've raised my hand and he would've sorted my life out. But he said it might've taken longer than 20 minutes. Bless him - nice guy, orchestrator of the most amusing history lessons I've ever had. But anyway, I've now done my A-Levels. Whoop-dee. I'll get the results sometime in August - am hoping for good news. In fact, am demanding good news. But they're done and that's really all that matters. No more until university. ..oh god.

IBM - I start on the 22nd of August with the weekend inducation. WOrk starts the following Wednesday, so we'll have a day or so to move into our apartment. It's Freddie, Fais, Holly and I. =O I haven't really met any of them, but I've spoken to them on MSN. They seem like a nice bunch of people - I'll trust them with the apartment picking. Will be needing to get a National Insurance Number over the holidays, which is a bit of a bitch, but it's something I'm going to have to do. :/ Sigh. Will also be self-sufficient on 12,000 pounds a year at 17. Impressive, if I do say so myself.

Summer - My plans for the summer are...work. Work. Read (Swedish and English), RP, get into some sort of shape, fix my tooth, fix my back (come hither, chiropractor), fix my foot, and ..generally getting myself back on my feet after two years of stress. I have knots in my shoulders. It hurts. :/

Prague - Oh god. xD Had a fantastic time. Regret the Londoner, thought the banker was absolutely superb. Attractive, charming (28-year-old <3) man - gave him hell and had none of it handed back to me. Am rather impressed. Hope his best friend's wedding goes well - believe he's best man. It'd be amusing to bump into him again - any of them, really. xD We basically hung out with a stag party. Hah. Emma and Rob left after two and three days respectively, but Emily and I stayed on to become hotshit tourists. I had a blast. Leaver's ball was a bit of an anticlimax, but nice nevertheless.

And that's about it, really. >_> I thought it'd be a longer update, but no. Sometime, I'm going to write a list of all the things I want to do. I've been wanting to do this for about six months, but always felt bad every time I started. =P I'm so tired. And ill. But loving life.

<3

Shit shit shit shit shit shit. I can't do it. I'm panicking. I'm not prepared for my A-Levels, I'm going to die. And fail. And that'll be the end of me.

Oh for fuck's sake, woman, take a deep breath and SORT THIS OUT.

History is fine. Just brush up on knowledge a bit, and you have ten days between AS and A2 exams.
Biology you'll be fine in.
You have two days left at home in which you can brush up on your ICT AS and chemistry, plus the MOnday and the Tuesday - YOU'LL BE FINE.

Chemistry's your weak point, but you did ok in the organic, and the multiple choice isn't really worth that much - plus you were a few marks off an A for that.
ICT A2 - so you haven't starated, big deal. Do some tomorrow, and during those ten days, and all will be FINE. On the 28th is all over.

And even if you do stuff up, you're doing these exams for YOU and not for your parents, or your teachers. That's what you're afraid of - disappointing them when they've put in all the effort to raise/teach you. But you're not in this for them, you're in this for you, and you can always retake if you muck something up. In January, which isn't far off.

But don't think about that, because you'll DO FINE. You've been in this situation before. And Art is fixable, just do it on Sunday. You've done a hell of a lot already - maybe four nice pieces in the second book, plus evaluations, a bit more on the artists. FInish final piece, add a few nice pieces in the first book + artists + evaluation (which is EASY) and you'll be fine. You'll get an A in that.

Then sort out the rest of your life. No biggie! Which includes:

- National Insurance Number (again)
- RP stuff
- Plan Prague trip
- Set up Apache server in school, find out of it's possible to have IIS and Apache servers on one domain name - don't see why not

DON'T PANIC.

/end note to self

I need to shower. :/ ..I smell not-good. n-n

Bye. <3